the day i decided to give you up and say hello to another.
so sick of you that i could sing a song and write it here. 

goodbye.
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hello.
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ok, i sounded stupid.

i dont know whether you feel this way once you hit this point of your life.
cause i feel i have aged quite a bit this year, unusual for a 22 year old i say.
too many complains seriously, but sometimes, you dont know where to begin.
and when there’s no one to listen, maybe that’s the reason i talk to myself that often.
life’s not that bad actually, i’m happy, just wished it was better. Maybe if there’s less work load, more time, i guess once in a while, it’s better to take a break away from this busy city.

SOMEDAY…
i want to travel to somewhere alone for holiday.
i want to drive on the roads at night with no destination in mind, just keep going and enjoy the night lights.
i want to lie by the beach and look at the stars and talk till i fall asleep.
i want to look at this busy city from high above and feel like i’m alive.
i want to scream at the top of my lungs and then laugh it off like i just did the stupidest thing.
i want to do stroll the streets when everyone is fast asleep, and do the stupidest things you dont do in the day.
i want to do a video clip of my life.
i want to do a video clip of all my friends so that when i’m old i can take out and see how precious they were to me.
i want to go to somewhere nice to take nice pictures.
i want to go for long bus rides to nowhere in mind to alight.
i want to sit and just people watch, see them do the things they do.
i want to sit by the bench and watch airplanes fly over my head and feel the wind blow at my face.
i want to hear the silence of the night when all parties end and when everyone’s asleep.
i want to do bungee jumping.
i want to leap off a mountain.
i want to do backpacking at europe.
i want to spend a few months staying in every part of the world till i die, of course provided i’m rich.
i want to migrate to manhattan.
i want to go overseas to study.
and someday, i want to stop growing old.
and someday, i just want to be rich.
someday, just someday..

but now, i want a heineken.
I’ve been a healthy kid staying away from beer and cig.
No beer makes pam an unhappy girl.

work is stress i might just need the happy stick soon.
i’m mentally exhausted.
wont someone just kidnap me and bring me somewhere instead? 

when we are kind to ourselves, we make ourselves a gift to those around us. =)

and i’m still in office. work is full load man!

Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down, don’t dance so fast.
Time is short, the music won’t last.

Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask how are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores running through your head?

You’d better slow down, don’t dance so fast.
Time is short, the music won’t last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift thrown away.

Life is not a race, do take it slower
Hear the music,
before the song is over..

this morning i finally woke up to work after resting for 3 days. it was more than enough to nurse my throat and to nurse whatever that was need to. but at the end of everything, why do i still feel that sense of emptiness? the feeling that you have nothing to begin and left with.

yesterday i lay at the white sofa which sit nicely infront of the tv set from 10am to 11pm. my mum went out shopping, came back and commented that i was crazy. and i thought so too.
i feel like i lost my soul.

this year is passing way too much, it’s november 2008.
is this 1 year a dream or is this 1 year all for real?

could i be the me that was never me?

some things dont come by easy.

i need a getaway before i go mad.

i got used to being anti-social.

these days, i hate to talk to people.

it’s those kind of depressing mood that you have no explaination to.
it’s demoralising.
it’s…… =(

One fine day, Pam and friends was walking along Raffles Place Mrt Station. Pam’s eye lighted up after she spotted this huge huge Heineken Poster. And so being the Heineken lover she is, she was excited.
And the conversation goes as per below.

PAM : “(reading off the board) It could only be Heineken! I want to put this poster in my room!!!”
Pam smiled happily.

Friends looked at me.
FRIENDS: “SIAO. The Heineken stand alone, you like heineken cause you loner what.”

Pam ignored and continued,
PAM: “Actually i quite like Tiger beer too. It’s ENJOY WINNING!”
*smiles and show peace sign*

FRIENDS: Cause you always lose, you need Tiger Beer to make you feel better.
*background laughing*

and so Pam said,
PAM: “I don’t like Carlsberg!!”

Friends happily replied,
FRIENDS: “YAAAAA, cause you got no friends what!!”

and then the place started to fill with laughter. hahahhahahahahah.

Tiger – Enjoy Winning!

Carlsberg – World of Friends!

Heineken – It could only be Heineken!

I must say that the brains behind these beers advertisement are admirable. Not because i like heineken, but i seriously think their, “it could only be heineken” campaign poster rock balls. SALUTE TO THE BRAINS! Marketing has always been fun!

And drinking doesnt means it’s a bad thing, it’s just appreciating the drink. Like how some who drink coke religiously. I chose heineken! HAHAHAHAH.

is it true that the genie who gave 3 wishes only exist in Aladdin’s World?
Can i borrow and i only need 5 wishes, or maybe just 1, the last wish?

1. Ipod Touch.

2. A new Laptop.

3. A new camera cause apparently bro’s spoilt.

4. A new car? hahahahah.

5. JUST GIVE ME MONEY!

should i or shouldnt i?
i hate making choices.

i start to wonder if it’s that i am getting older or that i am just getting sick of doing the same things. normally a wednesday would see me very hype up preparing for ladies night with my fav girls, but wednesday and even weekends these few months everything seems to slow down for quieter nights. i am definetly not complaining about quieter nights, in fact i kind enjoy it pretty much even if it’s just watching movie or just doing nothing. I guess it’s just me getting older or have singapore become too small of a place to roam around? or is it that i’m tired to go out to meet the outside world? i dont know. guess what, i cant wait to go home and sleep!

i’m afraid of changes! =(

ps. how i wish i got tickets to russell peter!

edited – 01.37pm -
in a world of plastic people and prententious people all around you who appear to be nice, it’s hard to guard them from us.
times like that, i’m really glad that i have those few in my life who are real, that i feel so safe around them that i do not even need to put up my shield around them because you know they wont hurt you no matter what.