i dont know whether you feel this way once you hit this point of your life.
cause i feel i have aged quite a bit this year, unusual for a 22 year old i say.
too many complains seriously, but sometimes, you dont know where to begin.
and when there’s no one to listen, maybe that’s the reason i talk to myself that often.
life’s not that bad actually, i’m happy, just wished it was better. Maybe if there’s less work load, more time, i guess once in a while, it’s better to take a break away from this busy city.
SOMEDAY…
i want to travel to somewhere alone for holiday.
i want to drive on the roads at night with no destination in mind, just keep going and enjoy the night lights.
i want to lie by the beach and look at the stars and talk till i fall asleep.
i want to look at this busy city from high above and feel like i’m alive.
i want to scream at the top of my lungs and then laugh it off like i just did the stupidest thing.
i want to do stroll the streets when everyone is fast asleep, and do the stupidest things you dont do in the day.
i want to do a video clip of my life.
i want to do a video clip of all my friends so that when i’m old i can take out and see how precious they were to me.
i want to go to somewhere nice to take nice pictures.
i want to go for long bus rides to nowhere in mind to alight.
i want to sit and just people watch, see them do the things they do.
i want to sit by the bench and watch airplanes fly over my head and feel the wind blow at my face.
i want to hear the silence of the night when all parties end and when everyone’s asleep.
i want to do bungee jumping.
i want to leap off a mountain.
i want to do backpacking at europe.
i want to spend a few months staying in every part of the world till i die, of course provided i’m rich.
i want to migrate to manhattan.
i want to go overseas to study.
and someday, i want to stop growing old.
and someday, i just want to be rich.
someday, just someday..
but now, i want a heineken.
I’ve been a healthy kid staying away from beer and cig.
No beer makes pam an unhappy girl.
work is stress i might just need the happy stick soon.
i’m mentally exhausted.
wont someone just kidnap me and bring me somewhere instead?
