staring at the sky out of my window, i start to wonder the many things in life.
problems and thoughts that couldnt be even put to words.
which is why, i find it hard to breathe.
it’s late for such talk i guess.
but it’s getting harder to fall asleep.
1.33am now, i think i need some beer to fall asleep.
some pictures from the celebration, nth much cause ahtan have yet to send it out too. hahahahah.
and so it’s friday again! the weekend of F1 street night race. excited? maybe. hahhahaha. it will meant congestion everywhere too, really stupid. cant wait for work to end, i’m exhausted. and bored at work. hahahaha.
“The best things in life are yours if you can appreciate them.”
i am starting to have mixed feelings on how my life will turned out to be. how my projection of my life would be. i woke up this morning to a dream of my future that i couldnt piece it together now. could it be a sign?
i miss a number of things and people;
recently i have been drown in my own thoughts.
Like as if i were sucked in the world of lazing around with no goals and all. i can’t seems to find the passion that i used to have in life, the burning desire to want to make things work.
i have goals in life, but i cant seems to have the energy to want to make it work. what is happening, why is nua-ing mood taking over me? i get so tired recently that i simply have no mood to do anything.
what happen to my passion?
what happen to my motivation?
what happen to my goals?
what happen to me?
finding my way back;
the fire in me.
birthday seems like another day. adding another number to the 21. nth great.
but still grateful and glad to have the people i love celebrating for me on saturday!
thanks to friends and families. love them too much!
but despite all, i guess there ought to be alittle disappointment here and there.
someone told me,
“there are so many people in our lives that will just pass us, and when people get occupied with new things, they forget about the past.”
it’s true i guess, but deep down, i was wishing some people would remember this day of mine. somehow i wish she would at least sms me, but i guess afterall that happen this one whole year, like what she say, different frequency and all, there’s nth i could do. like what mairah say, maybe she forgot, or maybe she didnt want to. but i hope she did forget, and not because she didnt wanna wish me. not just you, but i guess good friend in sec forgot too.
“sometimes, we want everything, but we cant get everything, so we have to be contented. disappointment; yes, but there are lots of things that went well.”
this birthday wasnt that bad afterall. party and dinner with loved ones.
i couldnt ask for more. =)
I enjoyed and I am happy!
thank you to the people who made it on saturday.
thank you to the people who got me high.
thank you to the people who is a part of my life.
thank you to the people who love me.
happy birthday pam!
Much Love,
Pam
i have never been a fan of my birthday.
i have never liked my birthday.
every year, this time, there always this unknown depressing mood overtaking me.
and this year, it’s no exception.
here we go saying goodbye to the August of 2008. Embracing September.
Keeping it short, i had a fast week and a fun one catching up with people here and there and working hard. Went down late last week to visit Pat’s baby daughter, my first time carrying a new born baby. ahahah. Pics not with me yet. Amazing how a new born baby could bring so much joy to the family.
Boss’s Little princess!
After that was dinner with Richard Ling who will be far away in Seoul towards the late days of September, hope he will go out there and work harder and so i could also so look forward to holiday in seoul too! ahhahahaha. Met up with fie and mairah to talk nonsense too, about me ranting and ranting non-stop, and i came out with a 2nd work out plan after leonard losing my bike, i decided to get blades so that we can go blading and work out that perfect abs. one day, just you guys wait. HAHAHAHHA. weekends was spend quite good, fast i say. friday was drinking and chilling to fucking good music. sat bbq with the sec school friends, weird but did a catch up with mj, it’s always good to hear good friends doing well now. meeting her for lunch one of these days, yup, one of these days. hahahah. and then it was a zoom zoom zoom night over at zouk which had me having hangover the next day. steamboat at home on a sunday with the family was love, food is love. hahahha. young i say, play hard, have fun.
Team picture weeks back at halo bar.
AND then, hopefully Sept will be a slower month, pace down abit. Playing golf, blading and reading my books is up on my list. havent been reading much since the last book i finished! i think i wanna go to the beach some days, feel the wind slapping against my face. hahahaa. so little time, so much to do! 22nd birthday in 2 weeks time with no plans, could life get any worse? hahhaha. but then again, it’s just another day in the calender, aint it?
HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD EVERYONE!
GOODBYE MONDAY BLUES!
LET’S ALL SING TO A BEAUTIFUL WEEK AHEAD.
LA LA LA LA~ LA LA LA LA LA~
on a random note, i miss the one who lives across the street.
