i’ll hold yesterday in my heart;

“People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway. If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway. If you are successful, you may win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway. People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway. Give the world the best you have and you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.”

and so it’s been a while, boss not in today, thus able to bloggg my very long awaited post. assignment hand in, new/old boss rejoining, exams pending, been really really busy with everything i hardly had time to sleep, ok i meant having sufficent rest. and things would get even worst in the coming august. i can so see that happening, more work and exams in the first week of august. and it’s already august, time is passing too fast, that day was just having this conversation with ahtan, saying new year we were jsut celebrating at holland v, another new year is coming soon. hmm, are we all getting older? should start planning for things before time fly us back and the next thing i know, i’m 30. that will be too late for a “OH SHIT!” ahhaah. 5 years plan inbuilt in my mind, 18 months more to my degree completion, ideally 26 to get married, 1 more year of hard work to rise to manager, 2 years plan to get a car, i got too much of a plan actually. hahahahahaha. lets just stick to my 2008 plan for now, the plan is work hard, play hard. as time pass so fast, as life gets busy, i think very often, i feel the emptiness, come from nowhere. i think everyone will feel this way, or for me, it is this way. the after work emptiness, sometimes a no sense of direction in life, sometimes a thinking where i think certain ppl dont need me in their life, sometimes a tiring feeling to sleep through everyday but afraid of missing out on things in life. the time pass so fast, my weekend pass by this fast, i haven’t had enough rest. and if you think this post is just about me grumbling about busy life and whatever shit, i have alot of over due photos……. if my memory still working well.

friday zouk night with the girls!

one of the saturdays, we made a trip down to mos!

one of the fridays where we sat outside cine after movie with the girls. i can’t remember what show we watch, ok, memory failing me.

and it was my dad’s birthday on the 12th July 2008, which i forgotten about, dinner at bottle tree park, cake cutting..

after the dinner was a zouk night with erjie, bei, mich, and erjie’s friend. where we met cute servers to f1 racer to look-alikes to proud car owners. had to many to drink and ended with supper at thomson.

 and i think it was 2 weeks ago friday night at zouk!

ahtan with short hair! hahahah.

and last week was out everyday, almost die of not enough rest. hahahaha. thursday was town with bei, friday was dinner with the girls then jbar, sat was zouk, sunday was studying at vivo, and today is monday. MONDAY BLUES! With lots of work left to be done, i’m looking forward to the week, with dad out of town, whole car to myself, fri and sat with no plans, wanting to watch money not enough II, wondering is singfest is worth going, exams coming, like wtf la. hahahahahah.

i wanna watch these showsssss….

 got milo ventimiglia. hawt! crime/thriller show. should be nice, hopefully not gore, cause R21.

 this is gonna be good. i think. funny shit. 10 years since part 1.

and of course not forgetting my favourite jessica alba in LOVE GURU.

 Justin timberlake is in it too. coming out soon. WOOT! MUST WATCH. ahahha.

till then, the calling from within off to lunch.

sometimes i wish time slows down alittle, for life has been rather busy.
sometimes i wish time would pace up alittle, for the many things in life if time were to pass faster, it would be easier to pretend to ignore things or facts.

and i didn’t realise till now that, some time of my absence could change this much, change the way things are and all.
being part of this something used to make me happy.
now, i forgot i am part of it, because it felt so.

back to hetic work life.
life’s been hard, work and school, it ain’t easy.
and i cannot afford to be sick again.

i figured that my presence does not make any difference in your life.
there shouldn’t be even a trying point, but it seems so here.
i stop here.

*racking my mind for my assignment. i can’t seems to think of any ideas for my assignment for marketing plans….. how. time is running short.

saw some of the seniors netball photos on facebook, i thought about netball days. really somehow missing those days where everything was so simple, all you do is have fun. and it was my fittest and skinny days. HAHAHA. after school, go home change, back to school for training, after training hang around till late. those were the good old days. even during recess time, the netball girls will sit together. i seriously miss the fun and all of them. the bond we shared was so precious but it never stayed when all of us went seperate ways.

enough of reminicsing, i finally hand in my QM assignment yesterday at 7 plus, stay in on sunday to do what i call unproductive, i spend the whole time ytd at work to complete and with the help from aaron alittle here and there before i hand in!  A BIG RELIEVE. but all is not over yet, left with consumber behavior to finish today, and 3 more weeks till exams are here. god bless. so to reward a stressful day, we went for dinner at thomson, chicken rice feast was way too much for 3 of us till jimmy came to finish up everything. and we can only accept the fact that when guys get together, all they talk about is either WORK, SOCCER, GIRLS. so boring i tell you. thus leaving me and clara trying to entertain each other, laughing till my tummy hurts. it was really funny and all retarded between us. this kind of thing could go on forever. HAHHAH. and went over her place to supposingly accompany her, but fell asleep while watching tv again. i swear it’s her room, some sleeping spell…… HAHHHHAHAH.

she made my day despite all the stressful work and assignment.
my happy pill for the day!

back to blog about my weekend if i managed to complete everything tonight. hahaha. back to work.

if everything were simpler.
if everyone think in simple thoughts.

what happen to my happy circle and the people in it?

assignment is due next monday and wednesday, yet to start on it.
this week is tight, i need to start doing!
exams is in 1st week of august.

time is running short.
pam hurry up, finish up everything.

and so here it goes being that “everyone need a new direction in life!”

i think so! pulling myself out of all those “claimed” dark moments and looking at life with a different view, think i just need a new splash into my life! with ahtan starting a new career, couldn’t be more happy, and sue looking for jobs, pam looking for new jobs, 3 of us shalt work hard together. the whole week have been really really busy, haven’t had time for enough rest!

wed – classes
thurs – cycling
fri – zouk night
sat – mos night
sun – siglap + chomp chomp with the fav girls
mon – dinner + eski bar
and today is meeting the ex-colleagues for dinner and some drinks.
and tmr i have classes and hopefully meet ahtannn for dinner before she start training on thursday.
and fri, dinner plans not confirm.
and sat, niece birthday.
and the whole week is all plan out.
and yes, my assignment is due next week, buck up pam!

no photos cause the photographer has no access to internet! till she comes online. ahahah.

and to ahtan, and yes cannot imagine the thought of you not being in singapore from time to time after 3 months. starting to dread those days that are coming ahead. ahahaha. but yes, the trio shalt work hard together!!! and for our number, i just have to admit you really are my number 1 lucky charm!!!! if only i bought. fated. but then again, your batch number i going to buy every draw!! hahahaha.

back to mundane work life!