i’ll hold yesterday in my heart;

after talks with the older family members, they very much make sense.
i guess they have been there and done what we youngsters have been through.
one of the very thing that they say is, “everything is fake” and “when you give, don’t expect anything in return.”
give with an open mind/heart, and as long as the receiver is happy, don’t expect the same thing or anything in return.

just now i heard the song, “Nothing gonna change my love for you”.
“If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you “

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we know deep down inside, nothing is forever.
what kind of things are forever?
are we all pretending that certain things can be forever?
or at this time, we only want to see what we see now and not think of what the future lies?
or we’ll only see when certain people will show their colours?
what is forever?

so my whole week was kinda alcohol intoxicated and insufficent sleep.

tuesday it was after work activity with the colleagues.
- dinner at holland v.
- saw david tao while walking to car park. HANDSOME!
- ktv at clementi.
- 10 plus drinks at acid bar with zx.
- sleeping well at 2 plus in the morning.

wednesday it was long-time-no-ladies-night!
- nana thai with the girls.
- clarke quay for ladies night cheapo drinking.
- zouk loving.
- hotdogs.
- sleeping only at 4 plus in the morning.

thursday tiring day at work.
- reaching work only at 10am.
- seh talk in the morning with ahtan.
- dinner with ben. food + drinking + smoking. perfect.
- long chat about life.
- mairah joined and lame jokes was everywhere.
- sleeping only at 2 plus in the morning.

friday crazy day.
- meeting in the morning.
- jap lunch with shaun.
- rushing for plans the whole day.
- dinner with the girls.
- went back home at 9 plus.
- chill at home with bei.
- 1am, me, bei and erjie was seen at zouk.
- zx came and we dump him there. hilarious.
- drank alot, shots, beer, vodka.
- had hotdogs at 2plus.
- photo taking session. we took 70 over pictures in less than 30 mins.
- ben came and continue drinking.
- left only when phuture close, drunk by then.
- supper at mac, seh talk, throwing things everywhere, asking strangers lame jokes.
- slept over at bei’s place.
- i had a crazy and fun night.

oh ya, i saw aloy at phuture too!

sat was lazing day.
- woke up ate breakfast.
- watched tv the whole afternoon.
- went back to sleep till 7 plus.
- drag myself home to shower and all.
- 12 plus it was a trip to malaysia for supper.
- cheap cig + cheap dvd + cheap food.
- funny road trip. cousin-in-law showing his “inner ah-beng” as he drove my dad’s car.
- blasting ahbeng music in the car.
- traffic jam.
- reaching home only at 4 plus in the morning.

sun was work work, play play, dinner dinner.
- woke up at 2 plus, nua in bed.
- went over the bei’s house.
- she only came home at 5 plus, so i did my busy work.
- shiok shiok steamboat.
- relationship talks.
- as i’m typing this blog, i’m drinking.
- finished 7 bottles of carlsberg.
- chicken wing + satay at 1 plus.

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haven’t really been hanging out with the girls. why?
this week will be a very long week, off from thurs-sun, can’t wait.
i hope it won’t be a alcohol intoxicated week again.
i drank from tues to sunday except sat.
need to go for a smoke now.
till then.

time changes alot of things. from time to time, changes takes place. it’s fact we can’t run away from. and very often it’s the fact that we always try to hide from. well, at least for me.

it’s 4.30am in the morning, i could hear the silence of the night so clearly that it scares me.
is this it?

my horoscope read;
“The conflicts or challenges that are going on in your life right now may be making it tough for you to stay smiling all day long, but are they really all that bad? Give your problems another look, and you’ll see a silver lining in all the clouds. Be open-minded about the fact that things happen for a reason — and you will know what the reason is soon enough.”

is friendster’s horoscope freaky or is it just signs?
very often, friendster horoscope is on the spot.
i should just think positive.