ever wonder what happen if your world come tumbling down suddenly? i seriously think i’m a coward when it’s come to stuff like this. cause i’m afraid of the truth and reality, they always bite you hard in the ass. and the scary thing is, you can’t fight them. i woke up this morning, hoping time would just pause for a while. i sat by the bed, told myself this year i’m turning 22. crazy i say. i ask myself if i have make any difference in anybody’s life, it occurs to me, that i don’t. Got pam, no pam, it makes no difference. it’s not like anyone need me to be in their life. i don’t know if it’s because i feel unappreciated or just that i’m useless, i think it’s that i’m useless. i realised i suck at alot of things, wishing i could be better than this pam. seriously i don’t think i know myself. always contridicting and confusing myself. who is pam. pam is who. i have no idea.
hoping my world doesn’t come tumbling down.
