You know when you were younger, everytime you lost something, no matter how hard you look for it, it doesn’t appear. But when you don’t look for it and least expects it, they appear out of nowhere and surprise you. As we grew older, when we lost something and when we can’t find it, we gradually don’t bother about it, cause we can either get something similar or replace with it something else, it’s way too easy. Ok but the true thing is when you don’t look for it or don’t expect it to appear, they will appear somehow and take you by surprise.
When I was younger, I really liked chocolate. Each time I was unhappy, chocolate seems to take the unhappiness away and make me a happy kid again.. But when I grew older, I don’t really fancy chocolate that much. But what was there to replace that something that used to take my unhappiness away? I hate the feeling of everything bottled up in me and feeling like I’m gonna explode any minute. It’s like the inner me trying so much to want to speak out but the me just couldn’t let it out. Year 2008 was suppose to put an end to all the emoshits, but why am I instead of walking forward, I seems to be going back. But I’m just gonna take it slow, because I can no longer pretend that it doesn’t affect me that much and pretend that I’m all over when I’m not. What I need now is for you not to call me or appear infront of me. Somedays I just hope I stay in bed the whole day and not go out and appear all emo and infect the happy people with my emoness. Nobody likes an emo and depressed kid. I’m not ok. But I will be, in a while. There’s no point crying over spill milk when I already know what I want.
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